Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Why I know I suffered so badly and for so long.


(This was a post I put on my Facebook community page, dated 27/04/13)

I used to think it was horrendous that I know the depths of pain people who are in unbearable pain can be in and the worst emotions and thoughts that can cause.

I also used to think it was terrible that I know how it feels to feel ‘terminally alone’.

But, if I didn’t truly know this, in a real deep and prolonged way, I wouldn’t be able to relate to others and understand their deep intense pain.

I’ve talked about this with people (even abuse survivors) who clearly don’t know the depth of this level of suffering, don’t know what it is like to have absolutely no-one and feel completely, terminally alone. Their faces are blank, there’s no recognition of how horrendous this can be and I’m glad for them, because it is beyond description and I wouldn’t want anyone to feel that way.

There needs to be people in the world who know the worst levels of suffering, to help others through it.

Although I am not happy I have suffered, I know it is a privilege to be able to help others with the same.

I’m not just putting a positive spin on it, I truly know my life was to be able to understand others, fully, deeply.

I’m not at a point in my healing yet, to be able to help people on a level any more than I do via the internet, but I know that’s where I am heading.

And for that, I am thankful.

What a privilege it is to help others, with such profound needs.

Praise God!

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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  3. Reblogged this on Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD and commented:

    It’s good to reflect back to some of my older posts and see how I was processing everything and understanding what I now know is God’s plan for me, part of that being to help others, with a level of insight and understanding of the worst emotions and situations to be in.

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