My life is ruled by my mobile phone alarm.
Alarm to get up.
Alarm to take medication in the morning.
Alarm to remind me of whatever I need to do that day.
Alarm to remind me to pick up my son from school.
Alarm to take evening medication No1.
Alarm to take evening medication No2, if needed.
And I still forget to take my meds on time some days. Which is not good, as this affects me even if I take them late.
Have taken my Mirtazapine late, so won’t be sleeping for a few hours now.
My husband had to remind me to take my Effexor this morning, that was taken late too.
I clearly need to practise mindfulness more. And I am better at it on okay days.
But some days, when my mind is totally overwhelmed with pain. emotions, severe depression and fear, I am glad I am dissociated and numb, because the alternative, is worse. Intense emotions, is far harder to manage.
But doing what I need to do when my alarm goes off, is needed, so really need to be mindful of that.