Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Grieving hurts the most, when I am on my own.


I have had a busy weekend, with my husband working, so not much time to sit and think, or feel my emotions.

Now, I am on my own and I know the grieving is felt more then.

Grieving hurts, the sadness, grieving relationships is painful, whether they are dead or not.

People think you only grieve people when they die. That’s not true and it can be harder when they are still alive.

And when you still see them, it’s harder.

Knowing people didn’t care, didn’t love you and that relationship you thought you had, or wanted, is dead, is so hard to process and feel.

Grieving the end of any relationship where you loved the person, is as painful as grieving the death of a loved one.

It is the end, the relationship being over, gone and can never be what you thought it was.

And still loving the person, knowing they don’t, never did, is painful.


But, needs to be felt.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “Grieving hurts the most, when I am on my own.

  1. I have went through the grieving process several times and it was from what you’re talking about. I haven’t let myself fully deal with it and I don’t know why. Thank you so much for being brave to talk about it.

  2. I am sorry you are also going through grieving, it does take time and when you have PTSD, the brain senses this as danger, and doesn’t want us to grieve and hurt, so it takes a lot longer to grieve fully.