Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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Why I cannot handle being told I am ‘demonic’, ‘a child of the devil’, by abusive ‘Christians’.


There are Christians who wrongly believe mental health is demonic. There are Christians who will live and die on the sword of Bible quotes, to back up their opinions.

There are many Christians who believe mental health disorders like Schizophrenia & Multiple Personality Disorder are demonic possession. They are wrong.

Many Christians are highly deluded people, who truly believe they are ‘better’ than others, are ‘know it alls’ and often know very little, their sheltered lives affording them little wisdom and depth of character. Yes, they can quote Bible verses, but not with any depth of true wisdom and understanding.

Had I have known this, I would not have been so open about my mental health – Complex PTSD, to my Church, because this has already been used against me.

Now, I know I am a child of God, loved by God, chosen by God, drawn to God and I know He loves me, protects me, provides for me and my family.

I know I am none of these abusive remarks/opinions, made by ‘religious’, abusive, sinful men.

I have been told by my counsellor and doctor – both highly professional in mental health and mature strong Christians, that I am not absolutely not demonic.

But, these remarks, trigger hurt caused from my childhood, where I was called ‘bad’, told I deserved hurt and harm, and was blamed for harm.

So, having Complex PTSD, means I have triggers to past abuse. These triggers create flashbacks, that I cannot control, cannot stop – they happen fast in immediate response to the trigger.

Calling me anything ‘bad’, which obviously ‘demonic’, ‘a child of the devil’ etc, is ‘bad’. Very ‘bad’.

So, having been to Church on Sunday and seeing these ‘charming’ people who have quoted these remarks, being the immature, ungodly, lacking in maturity in every way, narcissistic traits people that they are – has triggered all this hurt they caused. Hurt that has been ignored, condoned, accepted and enabled by others around them.

I am completely aware that going to Church, where these people would be, has triggered emotional flashbacks all week, and I know I cannot continue going there. The cost of what happens as a result, it too high.

I know God will be very angry about this, this level of sin, caused to someone severely hurting from the past, hurt further by sinful people masquerading as Christians, will not sit well with Him at all. Causing division in His Church, attempts to separate people from His Church, with lies and harm, will not be okay with the God I know. God loves us all, but He hates sin, and sin is what this is.

It is highly abusive to call anyone demonic, or insinuate they are a child of the devil and it is sin, religious/spiritual abuse and quite clearly very wrong.

And sadly, it goes on and I know, it has already happened to me.

And I have every right to be upset about this, and I refuse to allow anyone to tell me differently.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

6 thoughts on “Why I cannot handle being told I am ‘demonic’, ‘a child of the devil’, by abusive ‘Christians’.

  1. My Friend,
    That was one of the reasons I left formal religion and will not go back. The hypocrisy I saw, at the age of 5, was enough for me to denounce any dogma at that tender age. I still do. I have a Ggod who is loving, inclusive of all, and is not abusive, but inclusive. That is why I love AA’s principle of “God as you understand God.”
    I believe that many religions are nothing more than “the dead’s rules for the living.” Anyone who says that “they” are right, is immediately arrogantly deciding that they know “THE” answer. How disrespectful can one be by denouncing others as being less enlightened, spiritual or “religious.”
    The last place I will visit for spiritual validation is a place that believes “it” and only “it,” knows “THE” answer. Duality is Deadly!
    Best of luck to you.

  2. I believe there are as many narcissists, abusers, liars, self interested people within any religion, as there are throughout society and that has been made clear to me. Sadly, just as in society, often these people are enabled, their actions condoned and not dealt with well, with of course the added excuse of mental health being used, makes it easy for them. It is common for bullying, condoning of sin to occur within religious groups, because they are ‘forgiven’ and anyone who doesn’t ‘forgive’ them – becomes the one who is then told they are wrong. And I very much agree with forgiveness, and grace, but that should never include condoning abuse, bullying, sin and harm. Which sadly occurs and I have been warned of this. Standing up for youself against religious leaders, is often a futile process, but one I have done, with evidence and 100% truth. My integrity intact, my discipline for honesty proven. But mindless sheep flock together.

  3. I am sorry you are being mistreated in this way. Those are like “wolves in sheep’s clothing, they speak of ME but their hearts are far from Me.” God loves you…

  4. This is so so wrong, I am sorry for your experience. You should be welcome with open arms in Church. Sadly, I’ve had my own difficult experiences in Church. Don’t give up, there are better churches, with real Christians. It sounds like your faith remains strong, hang on to that.

  5. You are right. You are a Child of a Heavenly Father who loves you, knows you, and who hurts for you. As one of your sisters in Christ, I weep that your Church family members treated you that way in their ignorance. I pray you find a Home with a Church family that can uplift you and inspire you and be there for you and with you. Make it a matter of prayer and He will lead you in love, to that Home. He knows where you need to be and where He needs you to be.

  6. Thank you all, I really appreciate your comments and support. I am truly secure in knowing I am a child of God and I do know people are easily deceived, so it is easier to feel sorry for them, rather than angry with them, even though the hurt caused is painful.