Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

A heart of gratitude really make a huge difference.


Having severe Complex PTSD, which also means severe depression, plus FMS and fatigue, is a very challenging, daily, massive load. One which most people cannot comprehend unless they have endured it and all the trauma that causes it. I have literally given up expecting most people to understand.

It is very easy to get swallowed up by the depression, give in to the fatigue and be crushed completely by the massive amount of grieving.

But, one thing I know, is there are always good things to be thankful for. I am aware I could write pages of the good thing in my life, especially when I have been to third world countries and witnessed myself the amount of poverty there is in the world.

Most people in the world live in poverty, with no access to running water, enough food, and live in conditions many of us wouldn’t let our dog live in.

One thing that really struck me though, was seeing these people living in tin shacks, with dirt floors, barely enough food, no access to decent medical treatment, no dentists etc – they were happier than most people who are rich in comparison.

These people were grateful and thankful and joyful, with the little they had. The kids were happy, laughing, kicking about whatever resembled a football. These lovely people were just grateful to have the bare minimum to survive, while so many rich people whinge about how unfair it is they don’t have a better car, better house, more money.

These people were so poor in material possessions, but so rich in gratitude and contentment and were joyful.

Having a grateful heart, having contentment with what you have, truly makes people happier. I know whenever I concentrate on gratitude, contentment and thankfulness, it makes be happier.

It’s hard, with depression, with fatigue to focus on this every single day, let alone every single hour, or every single minute, but this is something I want to achieve, I want to be changed in my heart fully and I know there is already much work been done praise God!

I truly no longer wish for a different house, or more clothes, or fancy holidays, I’m not saying these things aren’t okay to have, but wanting them when you don’t have them, just makes you unhappy. Working too hard for luxuries at the expense of your family, is not okay.

I am trying to have a more grateful heart. Now when I am folding washing, instead of being fed up, I am mindful of how blessed we are to have so many nice clothes for us all to wear. Whenever I have to clean, I think of the dirt floors and tin shacks people live in and how blessed we are to have a decent home to live in, with running hot and cold water.

I’ve always been someone who likes to give, I love buying people gifts, especially things they would love but wouldn’t buy for themselves. Giving is something I have always had in my heart, I’ve always given whatever I can, my heart, my time, my love, my effort, thoughtful acts, and always given with love, not for self serving reasons or to look good to others.

But, gratitude for what I have and being careful and not wasteful, has not always been a strength of mine, but it is becoming one, praise God!

My life has been one that many would say I should not be thankful for, but I know there was purpose in everything being allowed and my safety being ensured throughout. I can never be grateful enough to God for keeping me safe and providing throughout my life and where I am at now. For not giving up on me, when I have sinned badly and done wrong in my life myself.

I am grateful and thankful for my life, despite the challenges I face every day.

My life is hard, every day, but I can choose to focus on that, and how many others around me have easier lives, or I can focus on how I have been given the life I have because I was strong enough to live it, for purpose and keep moving towards that, knowing God will strengthen me, even if He doesn’t heal me fully.

Life is precious, life is fragile and we are but a mist that can be gone as quickly as we came and I don’t want to waste my life.

Gratitude, contentment, a heart to love, a heart of serving and being all God wants me to be, is what I want.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

3 thoughts on “A heart of gratitude really make a huge difference.

  1. Wonderful post! I learned a long time ago that one of the biggest differences between “us,” and the third world country people is that they bond with their children early in life. In many African countries the mothers carry the children with them, all the time when they are babies, and for years afterwords. We dont. We put babies in their own rooms and in their own beds many times from the day they are born on. I could not believe when they took my daughter away from my ex wife after she was born, to weigh her and measure her. I said, “bring her back over her now.” THEY DIDNT!! I was appalled. That little girl had spent 9 months inside her mother and some woman is going to take her away and stick her under a french fry warmer. So I went over and her hand and sang to her while the nurse did her thing.
    This is not a comment on the nurse. It is a comment on what we do as a culture to start isolating our children, FROM BIRTH on!