It’s interesting that over the last 3 days, I have written several blog posts, all of which I would have posted a few months back, but I just knew I needed to write them, get it out, but not post them here, because I know by my stats who will be reading what I write here.
I could feel that pull to not post the blogs, not do what I normally do, which is just write whatever is on my mind. Praise God!
I know this is self control increasing. I know myself well enough, to know this even a few months back, would have not been possible. My impulse control and need to be completely up front, totally (often self sacrificially) honest are not for my own good.
I have prayed for self control in what I write, in what I speak and for how I express my journey, I have cut way back on how much time I spend on my community page, for many reasons, one being to resist the temptation to write too much there.
Impulse control, has always been something I have struggled with, so I am glad to feel this changing in me.
I know this change is not my doing, I know how I have been for the last 41 years and I know my own capabilities. Honesty and integrity I have. Impulse control I am honest and self aware enough to say, has needed improving and it has.
For me to write several blogs in a row and not post any of them, that is much improvement in self control for me. I am very aware of how not perfect I am.
I yearn to grow, to develop into all God wants me to be. To be filled with the Holy Spirit and led by Him continually.
And I have considerable self insight, to know this is increasing.