Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


I know what some people’s reaction will be, if the person I have complained about, gets sacked. And if he doesn’t.

If wisdom, justice and God’s requirements prevail in the formal complaint I have ongoing, the pastor concerned will be sacked and him and his wife will be removed from ministry. The reason being their hearts are so far from what is required of a teacher of God’s word, no repentance, lying, denying, manipulation, narcissism, abusing pastor counselling privilege, spiritual abuse, failure to have insight and the capacity to change.

I have had to check my heart on this matter and have done this several times, including with my doctor and counsellor. My heart and motives are good and wise. Continue reading

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The more I see people’s behaviour and hearts, the more I know I need Jesus.

There is no getting away from the fact that people are often selfish, weak, self serving, lack courage, lack integrity, lack wisdom.

I am none of these things, but I need to remember I have had a life where I have needed to be strong, have integrity, learn wisdom and have bucket loads of courage.

I said to my counsellor a few months back, I feel like I have lived 10 lives and she replied, and yes as a result, you have 10 lives of wisdom. She also explained how secure I am in myself and my integrity and this shows in my ability for complete honesty about myself, my ability to take criticism and know my weaknesses, my deep self insight and insight into others. Continue reading

Many Christians will say you should always see the good in people….

Interestingly, Christianity has a considerably high levels of abuse occurring within it.

Interestingly, much of this abuse, is known, ignored, condoned, justified and therefore, enabled.

If we constantly choose to look for the good, we can ignore the bad, the red flags and that is exactly what the abusive people are banking on, along with Satan. Continue reading