There are so many people in this world suffering, with no-one who cares, no-one who understands, no-one to hold their hand.
Mother Teresa said human loneliness, having no one to care, being forgotten, is a worse form of suffering than starving and she is right.
I know as a human, I can only help a limited amount of people, but my heart hurts, for all those who will never be helped, will die, never having had someone in their lives to care.
I get these overwhelming emotions of pain when I think of this.
I know total aloneness, with total loss of hope.
I know suffering and no-one caring. At the time, I didn’t know Jesus, so my understanding of terminal aloneness, whilst in deep suffering is something I will always understand and know others feel too.
This brings empathy and compassion that feels overwhelming some times. My heart hurts badly for people.
I want to take everyone’s hand and help them, lead them to Jesus, so they will never again feel alone.
And I can’t and I have to tread carefully on my community support page, because I know telling people to seek Jesus, will push many away, although I have had several conversations with people, who are now attending Church praise God, because it is Him that draws people to Him, to a journey to seek Jesus and walk holding His hand on this otherwise very painful, very lonely road to trying to deal with a traumatic past.
When I see people like homeless people, people with obvious mental health problems, I always wonder what has happened in their life, to cause this. No-one chooses mental health disorders, or being homeless. It’s so painfully sad.
Grieving a world full of suffering, sin, feeling this, understanding deep suffering, is hard, but I know that if I can only help a few people in this world, then that matters.
Plus, I need to emotionally protect myself more and not get too dragged down into the pain of this understanding and to have balance – because there is so much good in the world too, so much joy, good people, many people helping others.
But, I know I have this empathy for a reason, to help others.
And I have to remember the wise words I’ve heard ‘you can only help one person at a time’.
Which is so true and wise advice, but it still just doesn’t feel enough.