Craving my own company.

I have always been someone who wants to be around people, except for when highly depressed and then I have just wanted to be alone. It’s part of my all or nothing personality I’ve always had.

These huge swings in mood and behaviour from energetic, constantly talking, having fun, highly driven then to highly depressed, withdrawing completely and barely able to function, is how I have always been since being a teenager. And I know why, I know it’s all part of the complex trauma.

Narcissists, they know what they do is wrong, it is sin and will be used fully by Satan.

I believe narcissism and sociopaths are responsible for a considerable amount of abuse in the world.

I also believe this is very poor mental health, mostly because they cannot accept there is anything wrong with them – which is a form of insanity.

Not understanding yourself, not having self insight, not knowing you have poor mental health and you need to change and a complete incapacity to change – is the definition of insanity.

‘Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do’

This is so much more than just forgiving someone for huge sins, like hanging the Son of God on a cross.

I don’t need repentance to forgive people. I’ve already understood that with my abusers.

I don’t even need it with Christians, who are supposed to repent.