It’s a good job I am aware of the spiritual war that goes on, especially when important things are happening for God.
This last few weeks, we have had loads of sickness in our family, which is unusual.
My husband has not been sleeping well and he is cranky, as he doesn’t always cope well with lack of sleep.
And now my son has fallen in school and hurt his arm, the same place as he broke it badly 3 years ago, so had to go and pick him up from school, where they suggested it be x-rayed, as it could be fractured.
So, phoned my husband, whilst close to a panic attack, saying he had to come home, as our son needs to go to hospital. My children being hurt and in pain, is something I don’t handle well.
But, throughout this, I had it in my mind that this is so typical of what will happen this close to the formal complaint investigators coming to my home Thursday.
Of course Satan wants me stressed, anxiety levels soaring, not cognitively processing due to stress and worry because my son is in pain and going to hospital.
Of course Satan wants my husband cranky and irritable.
Of course Satan wants anything to happen that will put off what God wants to occur.
So, I am praying and trying to remain as calm as possible, breathing, mindfulness, every technique I know including blogging, to stop the anxiety rising, to remain focussed and not make this any bigger a deal than it has to be.
My son will be okay, he will be protected by God.
Even if he has fractured it, he will be okay and I can postpone the investigators and pray this doesn’t irritate them.
This situation, is not bigger than God.
It will be okay.
I have PTSD, which means anxiety levels higher than most people, but it won’t beat me, not now.