Controversial statement, but I consider my life to be a privilege.

There is a quote ‘you have been given this life, because you were strong enough to live it’.

I know I have been given my life, because ‘God’ made me strong enough to live it.

There is no escaping the fact that I ‘should’ be dead. I ‘should’ not have been able to have children.

Since my early 20’s onwards I’ve always known my life was for a reason, never quite being able to understand this fully, not being able to express why, but I knew it.

Can a narcissist or sociopath, be a Christian?

This is a subject I have been thinking of lately. I know a fair amount about narcissism, and those on the narcissist/sociopath continuum.

I have experienced considerable abuse from several of these. Including within the first 20 years of my life, having to be very hyper vigilant, study them, know their behaviours, know how to assess them, to stay safe, to stay alive.

My understanding of these narcs/sociopaths, is from considerable experience, not just studying psychology.

Exercise and healthy eating and my motivation. It has changed, praise God!

I have been through a ‘doing little’ phase, conserving my energies for something important, that is now over.

So, I decided I needed to get back into exercise, healthy eating, drinking more water, taking vitamins and supplements, all things I have let slide.

I am very unfit, probably the most unfit I have ever been in my life.

Exercise, when you are this unfit, sucks. But, it’s needed.

‘You are doing so much of your own counselling’.

This is something my counsellor has said to me, and she has also stated I would make a good trauma/abuse counsellor – due to my ability to self reflect, think deeply, work things out, understand myself an others so well.

I am aware I have done a lot of my own ‘exposure therapy’, which helps the survivor to become less impacted by the trauma, become more desensitized to it.

I have written over 200 blogs here, I have written for 6 months on my community page, I have processed a considerable amount and I know that.

I have written blogs about some things I could still not verbalise in counselling.