Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Controversial statement, but I consider my life to be a privilege.

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There is a quote ‘you have been given this life, because you were strong enough to live it’.

I know I have been given my life, because ‘God’ made me strong enough to live it.

There is no escaping the fact that I ‘should’ be dead. I ‘should’ not have been able to have children.

Since my early 20’s onwards I’ve always known my life was for a reason, never quite being able to understand this fully, not being able to express why, but I knew it.

I have considerable life experience, all of the darker side of life, of deep human sin, of abuse, many kinds, and different types of abusers.

A poor me story – absolutely not. I’ve never been a victim.

It happened for God’s purposes, for some of which I know and many I don’t and many I won’t ever know.

I have had mental health professionals contact me stating they follow my page and blog, because I am teaching them about complex trauma and how to heal from it and how to better help their clients.

I have had friends tell me the posts and blogs have helped them, with themselves or with others.

I know my life experiences of narcissism etc were needed for this formal complaint in exposing a narc pastor.

I know my posts and blogs help people. I had to stop private messaging on my community page because I couldn’t remotely keep up with all the messages, most of which were to explain how much my posts help and why and for further advice.

My ability to express myself in a relatable style without being too ‘psycho babbley’, or sound like any of the usual clinical sounding pages written by mental health professionals, without needing to impress with my literary ability (which is not great at all), without needing to change anything, just say it as it is, the good, the bad and the ugly, for others to know they are not alone, is what people relate to.

I am honest, too much sometimes, but complex trauma survivors often don’t trust and need to know someone is genuine.

Where all this will take me, I have no idea.

To be a counsellor, maybe.

To minister to people within Church, maybe.

To write books, maybe.

My life has already helped many people, so whatever is to come, will be for others, of that I have no doubt, with my healing along the way.

I don’t know where my life is heading and I don’t try to guess God’s plan for me, I gave up on that. I didn’t plan spiritual abuse, but that was all part of God’s plan to expose someone and their abuse and sins.

But, I do know it was all for His purposes and anything related to abuse and trauma, is a privilege for me, because this is something so serious and so emotional and so impacting in people’s lives they need help with. Help from people who understand it all fully.

Someone who isn’t going to be shocked when they tell me something they would be ashamed to tell others, or fearful of being judged about by all the Christians who love to judge.

It is a privilege, a huge one and for that I know my life was needed.

I won’t say I like what I endured in my life, but I don’t want to change the abuse I endured, because that is how God made me the person I am today, a sinner, who is growing and healing and learning, for His purposes.

It is a privilege to help God with some of the most horrendous sins people can endure – abuse and trauma.

And I will do all I can to help more people in the future, in whichever way God has planned for me.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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