Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

My life testimony to Christ, to deal with the bad, but to also then point to the light.

Having been a non Christian most of my life, I totally understand all the arguments against Christianity.

I see all the wars and greed centred around religion and how that portrays a truly shocking image of Christianity.

I see all the arguments about how within the Catholic Church dealing badly with their paedophile priests and leaders, is disgusting and so wrong and again, portrays an image of Christianity that is so far removed from what Christ modelled.

Plus all their millions spent in their religious ways, with the Vatican City, paying out millions per year to silence abuse survivors abused within the Catholic Church.

I also see clearly how non Christians don’t understand there is a difference between religion and relationship – after all many people who attend Church every Sunday don’t understand this either.

There is the saying that standing in a Church doesn’t make you a Christian, any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.

I find this all so sad, all the sins of all the religious people feeding into the atheist beliefs that God and Christianity doesn’t exist, or is bad.

It is and remains my belief that religious people are responsible for the downfall of Christianity and it breaks my heart to know there are so many people who don’t feel what I feel, that presence of Jesus in my life, that prompting by the Holy Spirit and to see God’s grace written all through my life.

It’s sad they can’t separate the two – religious/sinners/Satan/death….from God/Christ/love/eternal life.

I know my faith is ever growing and increasing. I know this last 6 months not doubting God, is proof of my trust and belief in God and my obedience to Him. And to honour Christ.

I know so much of what has occurred within my life in the last 6 months has increased my spiritual progression and I am so thankful for this.

But, it also enables me to see how so many people, people I care about are missing the one thing they need the most in their life – Jesus. I am scared for people’s eternal life and I pray for them all, as I can do no more.

But, it grieves me to see so much sin within believers that turns people away.

My aim now my family and I are attending a new Church, is to post about the good within Christianity and show how yes there were religious people sinning badly who hurt me and how honest I was about that, but there is also so much good and to focus on that.

I want people to know that despite being abused and badly treated by ‘some’ religious/narc people, there are many good Christians out there, doing good, all over the world, trying hard to be what Jesus wants.

Christians aren’t perfect and shouldn’t be held up to be perfect, none of us are Jesus, and some Christians are not Christians at all, so my role is now show the good side of Christianity and show people this is a reflection of what is happening worldwide.

Be a witness to others, that there is deep sin within ‘religion’, but far more good in Christ and I need to model that, speak of that, be a witness to that.

This whole situation of this old Church and all I endured, can be used to show an example of what does happen and a reflection of what occurs in this world, but also now be a reflection of what is so good in Christianity and the need for Jesus in our lives.

My life is a massive testimony to Christ and it always needs to be that way, to yes address the bad with courage for what God requires, but then always point to the light.

Many therapists use the term ‘pull towards the light’ and I absolutely know with no doubt, that light is Christ.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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