Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Pride, is one reason why seniors in a Church, cannot accept a leader is a false teacher.

Men have pride, it’s part of who they are and the Bible warns us against having pride and instead we are meant to have humility and it’s a mark of someone’s spiritual progress, as to whether they have pride, or not, whether they have humility, or not.

I have exposed a ravenous wolf, a false teacher, but those around him, can’t accept this and one reason, is pride. For many others, it’s just their ‘sheep like’ need to just ‘believe their leaders’ and fear to challenge.

The ones in senior Church positions, don’t want to have to accept that ‘they’ could not see this man for who is really is. Continue reading


It’s a popular misconception, that everyone in a Church, is a Christian.

There is much to be said about salvation and whether you can lose it.

The bigger issue, is this is all dependent on whether you are actually a ‘Christian’ to begin with, and many people who stand in Church’s, are not.

Matthew 7:14
But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

These ‘few’ people, are not all those standing in a Church, or all those claiming to be a teacher of God’s Word.

Matthew 7:15
Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.

The analogy ‘you are no more a Christian because you stand in a Church, than you are a car if you stand in a garage’, is a poor one, because a person can never become a car, but a person can become a Christian.

But, it is true that many who stand in Church’s and in leadership of Church’s, are not in Christ, but under the domain of Satan.

The way to know if someone is in Christ, is are they in obedience to God’s will?

Christians are not perfect, but their hearts will be to sin less.

Red flags I have seen are;

* Do they keep sinning in planned ways over periods of time, yes?
* Do they repent when their sins are exposed, no?
* Do they have genuine remorse for sins that have hurt another, no?
* Are their sins abusive, yes?
* Do they lie and attack the person a person who exposes them, yes?

These are examples of behaviours that show someone is not a Christian, but is under Satan’s domain Continue reading

I am learning how to understand and have patience, with those stuck at stage 3 in spiritual progression.

I am learning all the time, as per God’s grace.

Including patience and grace.

I have learned all about God’s watchmen required for exposing false teachers/wolves in sheep’s clothing, who come often as Church leaders and are not in Christ and are not Christians, and are not saved, which is why they can lie and deceive so easily and fail to repent, as they are not in Christ.

I have also learned about the 6 stages of spiritual progression and how most Christians are stuck at stage 3, and don’t understand those how have progressed further and how this is sin that they don’t challenge leaders, or church doctrine or themselves, but to have patience with this, being grace. Continue reading


God’s appointed watchmen, take their role seriously.

“And it came to pass at the end of seven days, that the word of the LORD came unto me, saying, Son of man, I have made thee a watchman unto the house of Israel: therefore hear the word at my mouth, and give them warning from me.

When I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; and thou givest him not warning, nor speakest to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life; the same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand. Yet if thou warn the wicked, and he turn not from his wickedness, nor from his wicked way, he shall die in his iniquity; but thou hast delivered THY soul. Again, when a righteous man doth turn from his righteousness, and commit iniquity, and I lay a stumbling block before him, he shall die: because thou has not given him warning, he shall die in his sin, and his righteousness which he hath done shall not be remembered; but his blood will I require at thine hand. Continue reading

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How do you know if a pastor – a wolf in sheeps clothing – is grooming you?

I have had people ask me what grooming and spiritual abuse by a pastor occurred and I will show some of how it occurred to me, so others can hopefully see it clearly if this is happening to them.

I have been spiritually abused and groomed by a pastor with sexual intent and these are a few of the ‘grooming’ tactics of a narcissist pastor. At the time I was severely depressed and very vulnerable.

These messages occurred over a period of a few weeks.

Combined with the following written comments, were many highly inappropriate behaviours occurring as well, clearly not treating my as a sister, breaking every code of conduct as a pastor and then outright lying about all of it when exposed.

These comments he wrote in facebook messages, within long conversations, he was having with me almost daily, whilst he was working, as a pastor, in a pastor role, copied directly with only our names removed;


Our relationship is one of the best type; both growing and a blessing

my heart is full of love for you

What’s Friday arvo looking like for you, you got time for a visit?

too easy I look forward to catching up and I’ll send you a cyber hug now…although does that get a little creepy?! hehe 🙂 Continue reading