Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


I never stop being thankful for my wise counsel, who understand why I am different to most around me.

Last night at counselling, I was meant to be doing EMDR, but I needed to talk about how I’ve been feeling this week.

My counsellor and my doctor know me better than anyone else. They know where I am at counselling wise, they clearly see and tell me how much Jesus is healing me. They have explained where I am at faith wise and how I am spiritually progressed further than most Christian’s will be.

This further spiritual progression I am thankful for, but is a tough one for me in some ways and in ways I am having to learn more, I am always learning and having my weaknesses strengthened and I want that.

I am having to learn patience with those who are stuck at that stage 3 wall. I know this doesn’t make them bad people, but they consider me less spiritually progressed, which is typical of stage 3 people.

So, at the moment, the only people I can talk to about my faith, is my counsellor and my doctor. And as my faith is what I think about most of the time now, I need to talk about it.

We talked about how many Christians have these very immature beliefs, like ‘it’s not our job to judge each other, that’s only God’s job’. Which is absolute rubbish and it states quite clearly in the Bible we are to rightly judge others of their sins and help them and encourage them to stop sinning and it is sin itself to ignore sins.

And this is just one of many incorrect beliefs immature Christians insist on. Like, you can’t lose your salvation, which is also incorrect and you can indeed – fall from grace and that is Biblical stated. Continue reading


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It’s interesting how Christians talk about how once saved, you cannot lose your salvation and yet there is Biblical evidence, that yes you can – fall from grace.

36 Bible Texts Which Illustrate One Can Fall From Grace

The religious world today is a false teacher’s playground.

In 2 Timothy 4:3-4, Paul wrote, “…the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine, but according to their own desires, because they have itching ears, they will heap up for themselves teachers; and they will turn their ears away from the truth, and be turned aside to fables.”

Among the most prevalent of false doctrines today is that once a person is saved, that salvation cannot be lost. Below are listed 36 Bible texts which illustrate that one who has been saved can fall from the grace bestowed by God.

Thanks to John Hains, who several years ago, supplied me with a set of notes, “Can A Christian Be Lost?”, from which the following chart comes.

The following shows the BIBLE TEXT, DESCRIPTION OF SAVED, DESCRIPTION OF SIN, DESCRIPTION AFTER

Ezekiel 3:20; 18:24-26
righteous turns away, commits iniquity die in sin

Matthew 25:1-13
went to meet Christ five were foolish “I do not know you”

Matthew 25:14-30
Christ’s own slaves hid talent wicked lazy, cast into outer darkness, weep & gnash

Luke 8:13
received word with joy, believed temptation, persecution fall away

Luke 9:62
put hands to plow of kingdom looked back to former life not fit for kingdom Continue reading


It takes courage, strength, integrity and honesty, to stand up to abusers.

Often those who have endured abuse and stand up and speak out about it, are attacked, belittled, scorned and treated like they are the problem, not the abuser.

This was another very popular post on my community page, as it happens all the time.

It takes considerable courage, strength, integrity and honesty, to stand up to abusers, especially as the reaction is often not met with a supportive or positive reaction from others.

Assumptions will be made, from those who were not involved in the situation and claims made of the victim being unforgiving, or dramatic, or mistaken, or clouded by past life experiences.

The exposed abuser will work hard to ensure his/her identity as an abuser is not believed, casting doubt on the victim, with lies, manipulation and they will discredit the victim anyway they can. Continue reading


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Ready for EMDR for the worst stuff…….and my homework I still have not done.

My counsellor and my doctor know me well, in fact they know me better than anyone, as they understand me, they know who I am, they know what I have been through, they know my heart, my strengths and my weaknesses.

I’ve had one session of EMDR and it went exceptionally well, all due to Jesus’ presence, and my counsellor being as good as she is at her job. Praise God!

My counsellor believes I am ready to tackle to ‘big’ stuff for EMDR. The really bad ‘stuff’. Continue reading