Fear of abandonment and rejection, always just under the surface.

Whenever I feel like I might be done with dealing with the shame and lack of self worth emotions and beliefs from my past, I get a reality shock.

I do know I didn’t deserve any of the abuse I endured, I am good with that. But, I wrote a post about how much God clearly loves me and provides everything I need and at the end – and one day I might actually believe I deserve it.

You can fall from grace, your salvation is conditional. As I knew.

Interesting info I found on why Baptists have it so wrong;

The Final Security Of The Believer

There is another thing on which the Baptist Church is wrong.

They teach once in grace always in grace, or final security for the believer.

On this subject the Baptist Church makes three fatal mistakes.

They fail to recognize that we can nullify that by which we are saved; they fail to recognize that salvation is conditional; and they fail to recognize what a child-of God can do.

Let us notice these three things:

Nullifying That By Which We Are Saved

We are saved by faith but some may depart from the faith (1 Tim. 4:1).

We are saved by grace but some may fail of the grace of God (Heb. 12:15).

We are saved by hope but some may be moved away from the hope (Col. 1:23).

We are saved by blood but some may count the blood unholy (Heb. 10:29).

Anyone who preaches ‘you are baptised, you are saved, you can continue sinning and still go to heaven’, does not know God or the Bible.

This was the response of the Reverend of the new Church we are at, when I told him what I have heard preached from the ‘stage’ of a Baptist Church.

He also confirmed Baptist ministers rarely know the Bible, often have only done minimum theology study in Baptist training college. He described most Baptists as heretics. And often act in cult-like ways.

He also stated they don’t teach the Bible, because they don’t want to be questioned or challenged, they just want sheep, following, mindlessly. And that sure is my witness of my experience. Sad.

The Reverend also stated that it was a work of God in me to know when I was hearing things that were wrong, especially as I fully admit I do not know the Bible to any depth yet, although now I am learning it. And I will be learning it until the day I die.

When I stated I have come to realise many Church ministers and followers, engage in what I describe as ‘selective Bible verse abuse’, he stated that was absolutely correct and very well observed.