Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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My response to the investigation team, I didn’t send…..


Firstly, please don’t patronise me, with your response that you are saddened by my response and will pray for me.

Your prayers will be far more appropriately directed to yourselves and the Baptist Church and their very un-Godly need to preserve image and cover up complaints of abuse, ignore evidence and show no concern for the victims.

I have it on good authority there are several other abuse claims currently trying to be covered up by the Baptist Church in this area, and lawyers are involved. And the Baptist Church are renowned for covering up abuse claims and your failure to process these claims appropriately, are attracting abusers to your Church.

So, this is obviously why you failed to mention any affect the spiritual abuse has on me in the report. You obviously do not want to put anything in writing that I could take to a lawyer. Of which I had no intention of doing.

You have stated in the report the mediation at my counselling centre was poorly conducted. You have no right to make such a conclusion. The mediators role was to ensure the process – not control what was being said. The only reason the spiritual abuser and his wife and senior pastor did not like what occurred at the mediation, was because they didn’t hear what they wanted to hear – that all this was my fault due to my PTSD. What they heard instead was ‘they’ have issues and marriage issues and being narcs, they couldn’t handle that.

In your report, you are basically saying that two strong Christian professional doctor -counsellors failed to act appropriately in this mediation. You have no right to state that and you are wrong and your conclusion is not based on fact, it is based upon your biased opinion.

You also stated the mediation served no positive purpose to me, How dare you presume to know whether the mediation was helpful to me – it was – as it showed to me exactly who these people are – narc liars.

You stated in the report this situation with this pastor has worsened my PTSD. Which is a lie as my PTSD has actually improved – despite all this . The 6 months of trauma counselling you were told, was for the spiritual abuse – which is evil and is trauma.

As for the messages being ‘overfamiliar’ and ‘open to misinterpretation’, that again is only your inaccurate conclusion to ensure I don’t go to a lawyer, as it is very obvious to me and others what these messages meant and that you have sought to cover up and minimize this complaint for the sake of the Baptist Church image.

The excuse these abusers have used ‘burn out’, are typical of a narc using any excuse for his actions, rather than own his actions and admit his abuse and repent and I pity him and his wife and I feel deeply for all these being deceived.

Your report is so blatantly biased, a cover up, a minimization and a failure by you. All you have dealt with, is what you ‘have’ to deal with, because I have evidence, including all the failures by this man in ignoring all the codes of conduct and yes you have highlighted his conduct was highly unprofessional but you know it is more than that.

Your failure to deal with this complaint appropriately means you have a wolf pastor who is a liar, failing to repent acting in a role of which he has already proven he has abused. If anyone else gets hurt by this man again, it is on your head.

I wrote this response, and didn’t send it. I knew it was correct and my annoyance was appropriate, but I knew it would fall on deaf ears. It wouldn’t serve God, so I resisted the temptation to send it.

So, I’m posting it here in my blog to get it out, instead of suppressing it.

I know God ensured I had the support I needed to understand this is a cover up and a minimization and the Baptist Church are the ones with ALL this issues, which is sad, as many are being deceived.

Knowing which battles to fight for God and which to leave, have been a challenge and I have listened to what I know I need to do and what to not do and what to leave to God.

God won’t be finished with these people.

But, I am.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “My response to the investigation team, I didn’t send…..

  1. Very strong of you to step away and trust in God’s judgement. Applause for you.