I like to describe many of the PTSD symptoms, as having a brain that is constantly on full danger alert mode, that is not usually required for the current situation.
Anxiety and hyper vigilance are two of these.
Anxiety is needed in everyone, as this warns us of impending danger, but the PTSD brain is stuck assuming EVERY situation had potential to be highly dangerous.
And anxiety is exhausting.
Vigilance, is also needed by everyone – but normally it is ‘just’ vigilance. Hyper vigilance means we are constantly scanning people, situations, surroundings, environment, for potential danger.
And hyper vigilance is exhausting.
But, I try to have a different view than just hating my anxiety and hyper vigilance.
Because having these kept me alive!!!
And having these is because my brain was forced to deal with many life threatening severe abuse situations, and PTSD is an outcome, that also shows I survived.
If I didn’t develop hyper vigilance when I was a child, I could be dead now. And my hyper vigilance is now proven to be excellent discernment.
The nightmares and flashbacks, are my brain trying and failing to process the trauma.
But, look at all it has been through!!!
I’m amazed it works as well as it does and I am so thankful to be alive and have the opportunity to heal and live, through God’s grace and love.
I have compassion for my PTSD brain, it’s been through a massive amount of trauma, but you know, I am strong, courageous and I couldn’t have survived without my brain working as well as it did to protect me.
PTSD sucks, there is no getting away from it, but I have compassion for why I have it.
I personally think my brain rocks!!!
My doctor and counsellor have told me I am highly intelligent, have increasing discernment, deep self reflection and reflection into others. I know I have deep insight into complex trauma and PTSD, beyond most mental health professionals. I have deep compassion and the ability to connect and help others.
So, my brain is doing really bloody well, considering all it has been through!!!
To view it this way, is healing.
And the praise is all Yours God!!