Not good when you start losing hope.

I can pretend all I like that all the abuse I have been through in my life, was for a reason, for me to help others in the future etc, but I wonder if this is just me trying to make something good out of so much pain.

I am too real and honest to go along with ‘putting a positive spin on it’.

I can say repeatedly, as I do, that all this abuse has given me compassion and insight and whatever.

But, at the end of the day, I suffered badly, I didn’t deserve it and I will live with those memories for the rest of my life.

Final discussion about the spiritual abuse report.

Just come back from counselling.

Saw my doctor and had to inform her of the spiritual abuse complaint report, as she has been away for 5 weeks and she has been doing the counselling with me for this spiritual abuse.