Just a game.

This song reminds me of how I have always been afraid and sought safety in people, but got hurt more and more.

I have been a piece in too many narcissists/sociopaths games.

The day I realised, this journey is not an escalator up.

For decades, I have fought to not allow my past to affect me. Of course it always has, but I tried hard to not let it. Never played the victim, never wanted to think about it, and I don’t want to dwell in it.

I was doing great, but now I am not and I have to accept this is the way it will go.

Someone on my community page explained it well;

‘Grief is cyclical and healing from the effects of trauma is cyclical.

It’s not an escalator ride up, but a trek over winding trails, up and down hills.

You are headed in the right direction.’