Final conclusion letter, of the formal complaint, arrived today.

Well, the final outcome of the formal complaint made and all the hell myself and my family have been through this year, has been agreed.

Due to my courage to complain, this pastor will lose his licence ‘immediately’ if he fails even once, to adhere to code of conduct again within the next 5 years. This is a big statement to make to him. This outcome not being common in a case like mine, but showing the seriousness of what he did and how much evidence I had and how much he failed.

(Had he and his wife not lied, he would have lost his licence immediately. And he knows that, and so does God).

He has to have psychological counselling to see if he is suitable to continue, as a pastor, particularly in light of my complaint.

I wish I could stop thinking about what it would be like, to have a good Mum.

Last year, I had to start processing and coming to terms with the highly dysfunctional dynamics of my family, which has been painful and devastating.

Since then, I have a habit of seeing fictional people and thinking ‘I wish my Mum was like that’ and then daydreaming about what it would have been like.

I love the movie ‘It’s Complicated’ with Meryl Streep. She is one of my favourite actors, and in this movie she plays a Mum of teenage age and adult children and I just love the character she plays.