This is a quote many use, and I can see how it’s true.
In order to fight hard battles, you have to be strong, you have to have courage, strength, integrity, an ability to understand what is wrong and to not ignore it if it is serious and serious spiritual consequences.
I have been fighting all my life and I’m really weary, really over it.
I worry my current isolating is unhealthy, but I know I need to.
Having been through trauma this year, devastated by so much hurt and betrayal and so many people failing me…again….I just need to hibernate and recover and I know, I have been told, it takes time.
I know God needed me in this latest trauma, He needed my courage, integrity, discipline for honesty and to not walk away from something serious, but it has come at a huge emotional and physical cost.
God is so gracious in ensuring I am sleeping okay, because if I wasn’t, it would be worse.
I know God is pleased with me, to have gone through so much and I can sense I am being told to rest and that it is okay and needed.
All soldiers need to rest after battles, especially when they are spiritual ones, as Satan worked hard through this, and I could feel that too.
So, like a wounded soldier, who survived but achieved what was needed, I will rest and just hibernate for as long as I need to, knowing Jesus is with me, comforting me, and will help me back up when I am ready.
I trust God to give me the spiritual healing I need and I know I have to ask Him to help me with that, not rely on my own strength to ‘get through’.
Life is not easy for God’s soldiers, and He knows that and graciously provides all we need.
And I do trust that.
Even in my exhausted state, I do trust in Him fully.