Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

God gives His hardest battles, to His strongest soldiers.


This is a quote many use, and I can see how it’s true.

In order to fight hard battles, you have to be strong, you have to have courage, strength, integrity, an ability to understand what is wrong and to not ignore it if it is serious and serious spiritual consequences.

I have been fighting all my life and I’m really weary, really over it.

I worry my current isolating is unhealthy, but I know I need to.

Having been through trauma this year, devastated by so much hurt and betrayal and so many people failing me…again….I just need to hibernate and recover and I know, I have been told, it takes time.

I know God needed me in this latest trauma, He needed my courage, integrity, discipline for honesty and to not walk away from something serious, but it has come at a huge emotional and physical cost.

God is so gracious in ensuring I am sleeping okay, because if I wasn’t, it would be worse.

I know God is pleased with me, to have gone through so much and I can sense I am being told to rest and that it is okay and needed.

All soldiers need to rest after battles, especially when they are spiritual ones, as Satan worked hard through this, and I could feel that too.

So, like a wounded soldier, who survived but achieved what was needed, I will rest and just hibernate for as long as I need to, knowing Jesus is with me, comforting me, and will help me back up when I am ready.

I trust God to give me the spiritual healing I need and I know I have to ask Him to help me with that, not rely on my own strength to ‘get through’.

Life is not easy for God’s soldiers, and He knows that and graciously provides all we need.

And I do trust that.

Even in my exhausted state, I do trust in Him fully.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

4 thoughts on “God gives His hardest battles, to His strongest soldiers.

  1. Let god take my hardest battle back. I dont want it. Never did.

  2. who wrote this wonderful quote?

  3. I read this and cried, currently going through something extremely difficult. I’m sure you got through your battle & continue praying that I get through mine!

    God bless.