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Poem – Wolf In Sheeps Clothing

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Wolf In Sheeps Clothing

My Experience with Pastor A. Allinson

The narcissist pastor
His safety
The Church
From the real life
He could not
That did not
Love him

His ‘stage’
Every Sunday
His delight
To feed
His need
To perform
His failures
As a man
Onto weak
Mindless sheep

His needs
So deep
The adoration
He seeks
Funny jokes
The pause
As he waits
For the laughter

His needs
Push him further
As Satan draws him
Further along
His narcissist path
Tempted he is

A woman
Who trusts him
He pursues
His plan

In her home
They are alone
He pretends
Using and abusing
His privilege
For his needs
Jesus, his excuse

Mirroring emotions
Gaining her trust
Too quickly
His latest ‘prey’
Open’s up
She cries
While telling
For the first time
Of her pain inside

He feasts on this
Lapping it up
Offering his body
Close bodily contact
Every opportunity
Hand on her thigh
Not while praying
While talking

She begins to need him
This his goal
He speaks of sex
Of how it should be
How pastors
Have affairs
This thought
He wants her
To consider

She is confused
So deeply distressed
So in need of a friend
A brother
She ignores the signs
Unable to process
Their meaning

The messages
Via facebook
Enthusing of his love
For her
Seducing her
Reeling her in
To his darkness

Then at the peak
Of her need
Of her distress
His wife’s intervention
And the seduction
Is ended

The brother
She always wanted
Her trusted brother
Cuts her off

His prey
She is
No more

While she hurts
The pain
The confusion
Blaming herself
The shame
Inwardly digested

He continues
His life
A backwards
His soul
Of empathy
Her role of prey
Has ended.


Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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