Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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Poem – The Fear Of Trust ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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A poem I wrote about trust, due to my severe trauma/abuse history;

The Fear of Trust

Trust
Hurts
The lesson
She learned
Throughout
Her childhood
Of god’s
And monsters

To trust
Equals pain
To trust
Is fear
Vulnerability
Unsafe
Betrayal

The danger
Of trust
Builds walls
To all
Builds fear
To all
  Constant
Exhaustion
Assessing

What
Do they want?
What
Do they expect?
What
Part of me
Is their need?
Will it hurt
Harm?

Vulnerability
Is not
An option
No more
Can she take
Anymore
Hurt
Or betrayal

It hurts less
To never
Trust
Safer
Safety
Imperative
Obsessive
Fiercely guarded

 An absolute
Non negotiable
To protect her
To keep
Her alive
She’s safe

But
Oh
So lonely
Isolated
Within
Her strong
Fortress
Her walls
Of fear

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle.

8 thoughts on “Poem – The Fear Of Trust ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

  1. Reblogged this on Foster Care Survivors and commented:
    This poem was not written by me, but I was moved by it and thought I might share it.

  2. very good description

  3. awesome poem and to the point of truth

  4. I the only truth, so well written and I
    totally agree.

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