Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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Poem – I’m Sorry Mummy



This is about being the daughter of a narcissist mother.

Why don’t
You love me?

I do everything you say
I care for my sisters all day
I do all your housework
I try to be, a good girl

Why don’t
You hug me?

I love you
You know I do
You see my scared eyes
Searching for your affection

Why do
You hate me?

I do all you want
I try so hard
What is wrong with me
That you don’t love me?

Who do you let
People hurt me?

I must be bad
I must deserve it
I must be evil
I must need to be hurt

I’m sorry I am bad
I’m sorry I need hurting
I’m sorry I am not lovable
I’m sorry my life
Makes yours so bad.

I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry

I love you Mummy.

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

4 thoughts on “Poem – I’m Sorry Mummy

  1. Reblogged this on Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD and commented:

    I still feel emotional when I read this poem.
    But I do know, there was nothing wrong with me.
    My mother had darkness within her that gave in to evil.
    There is a part of me that feels compassion, as I want no-one to be this way.
    And a part of me deeply scarred by living in the ‘garden of evil’ as I did for the first 20 years of my life.