Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


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Poem – Why God?

Why God?

Suffering
Trauma
Abuse
Agony
Slow death
Pain
Loss
Grief
Starving
Little children
Innocent
People

Ongoing
Occurring
Continually
All round
The world
Millions
And millions
Suffering
Horrendously

Why God?
Why create
What would be evil?
Why create
Free will?
When known
The suffering
The agony
The despair
It would cause Continue reading


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Right now, I am feeling very conflicted about my faith.

This is the first time in a year, I am seriously confused about why there does have to be so much suffering.

Why God created us with free will, knowing there would be so much suffering?

I just cannot bear to see all the suffering in this world, so why God, why do you?

I know it is all human inflicted – due to deep sin, abuse, neglect, greed and all the other human sinful, evilness in this world and Satan.

But, I desperately – right now – want it to end.

It is truly horrendous what so many people endure.

I can’t handle the overwhelming sense of grieving and anger I feel at all the horror in this world people are suffering. Continue reading


The Mercy Ship. The Surgery Ship.

I have just cried and sobbed through the program on the Mercy Ship – the ship that travels around providing free surgery for those in need, who have no medical treatment in their countries, like in Guinea.

I can completely see all the wonderful work they do – mostly Christians – incredible people all volunteering their time and skills to help some of the most poor people in the world.

They know they can only help a certain percentage and they have to turn away the ones they cannot help.

I watched a two year old, with a mouth tumour, who will suffocate to death, within the next 6 months and will die in agony. And they couldn’t help him. This beautiful little boy, and his loving dad, couldn’t be helped and I sobbed, as they told him the terrible news. Continue reading