I know myself well, I have deep self insight, and losing trust in my doctor, and losing church, within 2 two days, is not good, at all. It’s seriously bad.
I’ve always trusted my doctor probably more than anyone, especially about my past stuff. But, there is something so beyond difficult for me to have trust with someone who supports sex offenders and paedophiles, as much as she does.
No doubt because in my past, significant people in my life have sided with abusers instead of me. My mother, my step father, my sisters, the previous church I attended. All decided I was the one somehow in the wrong, blamed me and sided with the people who hurt me. It’s a huge form of betrayal, I can’t emotionally handle.
I didn’t realise how badly all of this, including the abuse at the previous church, causes me to have such deep need in the people I try to trust, to not side with abusers. I know she counsels sex offenders, maybe she prefers working with them now. Continue reading