I am so sick of people telling me how I should feel and what I should think.
I’ve looked after myself all my life and considering all I have been through, I’ve done okay.
It’s so easy for people who haven’t walked my life, to tell me I am being irrational, I’m not thinking clearly blah blah blah…
I’ve kept myself alive through severe abuse, that should have killed me….on my own.
I’ve survived severe child abuse from birth.
I’ve survived a sadistic psychopath, who killed a previous girlfriend and I suffered terror & torture from him for several years and got out alive.
I think I have a pretty good track record of looking after myself, so why does anyone who hasn’t lived my life, think they have the right to tell me how I should think and what I should do.
I’d like to see any of these people, live my life and see if they got through it all as well as I have. Many wouldn’t, because my life has been horrific at time, for prolonged periods of time.
I am far from perfect, but I know that, I know my issues, I know my mind and how it thinks and why I think the way I do, which is more than most ‘normal’ people do. Most have no clue of their issues, but I can see them.
I help people, as much as I can, in whatever capacity I can – and NOT because I get paid for it – I do it because I know how hard this is and I want to help people who are suffering. It may just be a drop in the ocean, but it’s something and I do it with a good heart, because I have had so many times in my life where I had no-one and no internet etc.
It amazes me really, that anyone can feel they can tell me what to do and what to feel.
All I need is people to just be there for me.
I don’t need any fucking lectures, or being patronised, or being treated like some moron. Excuse the language, but I am really annoyed.
This world is full of people, who want to voice their opinion, their view on your life and how you are doing it wrong.
When they’ve lived my life, then they have earned the right the tell me how I should think and how I should live.
If I fall apart because life gets too hard, then is that so bad, after all I’ve been through?
If anyone thinks it isn’t okay, then they have no clue what suffering and a life like mine is like.
Until they do, their opinion, is really, irrelevant.