Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Reason not to die.


To sleep
And never awake
Her ongoing
Dream of peace

Zoned out
Her old friend

Fear and pain
Past her capacity
To cope
Pain too great

Those who said
They cared
Gone, as always

She never deserved
Care anyway
Her mother
Was right

Very alone
Very afraid
She wants
It to end

Forcing life
To continue
For her children
Her cherished boys

Unable to bear
Thoughts of their tears
Their sad little faces
At her funeral

She lives
Only for them
She loves them
That much

Her love for them
Greater than
The deep pain inside
And her need to die

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

3 thoughts on “Reason not to die.

  1. Wow it gives such meaning to having kids..and living! !

    But its incredibly hard to live with the pain especially when it erupts so painful and violent, sore and horrifying u wanna end ur life!