Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


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30 Traits Of The Empath – 28 out of 30 are exactly who I am.

The more I read about empaths, the more I know I am one and who I am.

I don’t believe in the paranormal stuff, other than in a God based spiritual way. And the Bible does have many examples of spiritual incidents, that are outside of the realm of normal experiences.

Yet, most Christians see those as like ‘stories’ that happened in the Bible, but can’t happen now.

I have all this, combined with PTSD, so it is no wonder I struggle.

30 traits of an empath….

Here are 30 of the most common traits:

1. Knowing: Empaths just know stuff, without being told. It’s a knowing that goes way beyond intuition or gut feelings, even though that is how many would describe the knowing. The more attuned they are the stronger this gift becomes.

2. Being in public places can be overwhelming: Places like shopping malls, supermarkets or stadiums where there are lots of people around can fill the empath with turbulently vexed emotions that are coming from others.

3. Feeling others emotions and taking them on as your own: This is a huge one for empaths. To some they will feel emotions off those near by and with others they will feel emotions from those a vast distance away, or both. The more adept empath will know if someone is having bad thoughts about them, even from great distance.

4. Watching violence, cruelty or tragedy on the TV is unbearable: The more attuned an empath becomes the worse it is and may make it so they eventually have to stop watching TV and reading newspapers altogether.

5. You know when someone is not being honest: If a friend or a loved one is telling you lies you know it (although many empaths try not to focus on this because knowing a loved one is lying can be painful). Or if someone is saying one thing but feeling/thinking another, you know.

6. Picking up physical symptoms off another: An empath will almost always develop the ailments off another (colds, eye infections, body aches and pains) especially those they’re closest to, somewhat like sympathy pains.

7. Digestive disorders and lower back problems: The solar plexus chakra is based in the centre of the abdomen and it’s known as the seat of emotions. This is where empaths feel the incoming emotion of another, which can weaken the area and eventually lead to anything from stomach ulcers to IBS (too many other conditions to list here). Lower back problems can develop from being ungrounded (amongst other things) and one, who has no knowledge of them being an empath, will almost always be ungrounded.

8. Always looking out for the underdog: Anyone whose suffering, in emotional pain or being bullied draws an empath’s attention and compassion. Continue reading


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I Am An ‘Empath’, I Am Not Crazy. I Just Have Higher Emotional Intelligence, Than Most.

These moments of huge enlightenment and personal understanding of who I am, are just like WOW!!!!!

So, many things I have been saying for over a year – about people who like ‘easier lives’ – because they are not empathic, was TRUE……I was RIGHT!

How people see empathic people as problematic – because empaths are so honest and unable to cope well with ‘Apaths’, and get so frustrated….I was RIGHT!

It’s not me who is crazy – it is most of the population who do not have empathy – that are the problem, not me and other empaths like me.

And how empaths get targeted and feel more pain and withdraw and cannot cope well in society…..I was RIGHT! Continue reading


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Empathic People Are Natural Targets For Sociopaths & Empath – Sociopath – Apath Triad

Wow, this was information I already knew, but seeing it written out this way, is like reading about me.

Me = the Empath

Several of my abusers = the Sociopaths

Those who colluded, did nothing, don’t care = Apaths.

And it states clearly that the people who are not empaths — 60% of the population, who prefer easy lives – see empaths in PROBLEMATIC TERMS.

This is MY LIFE – people with no empathy – seeing me as the problem because they prefer EASY LIVES. I have been saying this for the last year – I see it ALL the time.

And how empaths withdraw from society because of all of this.

And there was me, thinking I am crazy, and I am not. It’s most other people with no empathy that DON’T GET IT – because their emotional intelligence is far lower. But, its EASIER for them, to label me crazy.

These extracts are from the link at the end of this blog post.

This part was interesting…

“There is the less-visible burden of sociopath-induced emotional trauma which, if left unchecked, can lead to anxiety disorders, depression and post-traumatic stress disorder.

Chronically traumatized people often exhibit hyper-vigilant, anxious and agitated behavior, symptoms such as tension headaches, gastrointestinal disturbances, abdominal pain, back pain, tremors and nausea.

Exposure to and interaction with a sociopath in childhood can leave lifelong scars. This can apply to people in therapy – and for those who in recovery trained as therapists, re-exposure as an adult can trigger old emotions and PTSD.”

And…

(This is me now – distressed by the apathy around me to care about children and women’s protection).

“The empath. Often, the person targeted by the sociopath is an empath. Empaths are ordinary people who are highly perceptive and insightful and belong to the 40% of human beings who sense when something’s not right, who respond to their gut instinct. In The Emperor’s New Clothes, the empath is the boy who mentions the unmentionable: that there are no clothes.

In the 1990s, researchers suggested that there was a positive relationship between empathy and emotional intelligence. Since then, that term has been used interchangeably with emotional literacy. Continue reading


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Cyber bullying is not ‘bullying – it is abuse by sociopaths who have no conscience.

I agree with this interview, where it was stated that 90% of the people who are abusive on-line, have no conscience and do it deliberately to harm the person and when inciting suicide, they want the person to end their life.

It is sick and one of the reasons, I am now no longer on Facebook, at all. Continue reading


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Decided to shut down all my Facebook pages.

I can’t handle them anymore.

I can barely handle keeping alive, let alone deal with people, deal with society.

I don’t want to be part of society anymore, so I’m not. I can’t.

I have known all my life to never trust anyone, and now for sure, I can’t.

I am too fragile, too hurt to deal with society any longer.

And there is only so long you can keep giving and not receiving love, or care back.

I’ve done this all my life and now it stops.

It’s hurts too much to be around people, who don’t understand the concept of integrity, love, compassion, loyalty, unselfishness, or being genuine.


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So deeply sad about Charlotte Dawson’s suicide.

So deeply sad to read about her suicide and how the pain she was enduring, became greater than her capacity to cope.

The internet is filed with all the posts about her death and about the social networking bullying, inciting her to go and kill herself. These people using fake accounts of course, as the weak, gutless and evil people they are. And it is evil that incites someone to kill themselves. It’s not ‘bullying’ – it is sociopathic evil.

I feel so deeply sad for Charlotte, than in her last hours of life, she was in so much pain. It make me cry, even while writing this, because I know her pain and I deeply wish she had not felt that.

No-one deserves to die this way. And I know that pain, to want to end your life because it hurts so badly. And whatever the reasons for the pain – it doesn’t matter – when life becomes that dark and that painful, that suicide is the only way to end it.

It was interesting to read how she bravely campaigned against bullying and her compassion was such that she used her own pain, to help others. It’s often those who have suffered deeply, who have the most empathy and compassion and often are those who have little real support themselves. Continue reading