Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Jesus often wept the sins & consequences of sin & there are no recordable instances of Him laughing.

People think I am irrational, when I say the world is dangerous and abusive and this is increasing. They believe I am scarred by my own abuse experiences and this is ‘all’ due to my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Child abuse stats are so high, they are a worldwide epidemic. Violence to woman stats are so high, they are a worldwide epidemic.

And abuse and danger, occurs within Christianity, as much as outside of it. And this is because people are deeply sinful and all very capable of causing much harm, and mostly choose to justify it, because of their lack of honesty, lack of capacity to admit wrongs and many more human sinful behaviours.

And this is being increasingly condoned, ignored and normalised. The child abuse stats are so high. it’s becoming ‘a normal life experience’ to be abused as a child and people are accepting of this, as though nothing can change. Lack of empathy is great in this world.

I’ve told a few people recently about my trauma history and my suicidal state, and their responses were quite sad really. None appeared shocked, none appeared concerned, and actually their responses were ‘all about them’. Total lack of empathy, total unawareness of the need to be outraged that this occurs within our so called ‘developed/civilised’ countries.

I have also personally experienced considerable abuse and harm in my life, at different ages.

Child abuse from birth, child sex abuse, abandonment, severe neglect, severe emotional/mental abuse, captivity abuse, torture, physical abuse, attacked by a stranger at knife point, domestic violence marriage, stalking, narcissistic abuse, sociopath abuse, psychopath abuse, paedophile abuse, spiritual abuse, grooming abuse as a child, teenager and adult, abuse within Christianity and outside of it, childhood bullying, workplace bullying, online cyber abuse.

All of this abuse is over decades, and a lot of that, was prolonged over periods of years.

But, despite all this, I spent a long time during my adult life, not wanting to think the world was dangerous. I did have a more immature view of society, and did not know what I know now.

And I know this is where most people are at. An immature, ‘rose coloured glasses’, ignorance, unwillingness to see the harm caused to so many. They want to believe ‘it won’t to me, or my family’.

And that, is exactly what Satan is banking on.

He wants any excuse and failure by humans, to get in there and cause damage and it will happen and it does happen, all the time, all around us.

God allows all this occur – because He gave us free will. He came in human form, to show us how to live, how to treat each other. So it is not enough to just pray and let Him deal with it. He gave us free will – wanting us to do right. He wants us to protect the vulnerable, help each other and always do right by each other and not hurt each other.

But, society and the world in general, fail so miserably at this, in a deeply impacting, harmful, selfish way.

I look around the world, see all the poverty, the starving, the wars, the trauma, the abuse, the selfishness, the narcissism, the apathy and it grieves me so deeply.

This is not what Jesus wants. Yes, we have the Christian hope of what will come, but that doesn’t mean we just ignore what’s happening now, and just focus on the last chapter, to make our lives easy.

Jesus wept while He was here as a man. He wept for the sin and devastating consequences for the sin involved. And interestingly – there are no recorded times in the Bible, where Jesus laughed.

I think Jesus, is far more understanding of those who mourn and grieve the sin in this world, than those who choose to ignore it and find earthly pleasures and joy instead.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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