Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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Forced myself to go out today and it went well and I am so thankful!



After all the research I did (and tears) about the desperately poor people in Nepal, the street children, and all their suffering…

I decided to get dressed and go out. On my own. To the shops.

I haven’t done this for a while now, due to my fear of going out, so it was an effort, but all the while, I had these images in my head of these beautiful street children in Nepal, sick, hungry, malnourished, suffering and the daily need they have to try and scavenge, or beg for food, to survive.

It motivated me considerably.

So went to the shops to buy a few things needed, like pyjama’s for my eldest son – who has completely outgrown and outworn his, and a journal I will be using for my Gratitude Journal, I am starting.

As I was wandering through the shops, I couldn’t help looking at all the shops, all the luxury, all the unnecessary materialism, all the people sat in the air-conditioned food court, tucking in to their lunch, healthy, well fed, well dressed children and I thought wow – we really are so deeply blessed and most have no idea just how much. As I haven’t in the past and I am still coming to terms with.

I looked in one shop at the pyjama’s – realising they now had their winter ones in and I needed summer ones. The only pair were $25 a pair, because they are licensed, fashionable ones, and thought nope, I refuse to buy them. I don’t buy any licensed clothing, or name brands anymore. I haven’t for over a year now, because I refuse to be sucked in to this materialism and greed.

Went to another shop, that was a little more expensive, hoping they would have some reduced in price – and they did! Clearance ones at $7 a pair! Fab! Thank you God!!! So bought 2 pairs, and a winter pair for my youngest, as he will need some.

Also found a beautiful journal, in clearance. Yay!

I didn’t have any panic attacks, I had a bit of a rash on my arms (hives), but not too bad.

I went home very content, very thankful for my reduced priced items, and reflected on how rich we really are, in worldwide terms.

Gratitude is something we all need to develop, far more of.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

3 thoughts on “Forced myself to go out today and it went well and I am so thankful!

  1. Well done. A massive achievement 🙂 Yay!!!!! and you also got a bargain too…..Now that was a day worthy of celebration. Yes indeed, we do all need to recognise just how lucky we are to have the things in life we often take for granted……roofs over our heads, food, water, clothes………not to mention all the luxury items we often now class as essentials…..like cars, too many pairs of shoes/boots, bulging wardrobes, holidays away…….to name just a few. I try to remind myself regularly how very lucky I am.