Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Poem – I Don’t Need To Be Your Average


Of reality
Of a life
Not common
In my society

Painful history
Severe pain
So many

In differences
No-one relates
To me, and
I don’t relate
To average society
Or average Christianity

Counsellor’s belief
“You are a
Walking miracle”
Doctor’s belief
“Learning is deep
But healing
Not complete” Continue reading

Post Natal Depression & PTSD

This was interesting reading, that many may find helpful.


Pregnancy and childbirth bring feelings of joy, excitement and anticipation. They also can complicate existing mental health issues and can create new mental health problems during the pregnancy, at the time of the birth and afterward. Mother and baby both can be affected long-term.

I have noticed in my own practice a number of clients who meet criteria for both acute stress disorder or post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and postpartum depression. The correlation between PTSD and depression has been documented. One study conducted by Shalev et al. (1998) found that 44.4 percent of traumatized participants suffered from comorbid depression one month after the trauma occurred, and 43.2 percent continued experiencing symptoms four months following the trauma.

In addition, the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual, fifth edition (DSM-5) — used by mental health professionals to help make diagnoses — states that people with a PTSD diagnosis are 80 percent more likely also to meet criteria for another mental health disorder than people without PTSD.

Starting to go out again & hives almost gone. I am strong. Always have been.

Over the last 2 months, I have pretty much withdrawn so much, that going outside of my home was difficult, resulted in hives all up my arms, and on my legs.

All part of my PTSD brains way of dealing with too much anxiety, stress and emotional pain and fear.

When overwhelmed, my brain goes into survival mode, and the only place I felt safe, was at home, with the doors locked.

And you know, that’s okay. I refuse to be told by anyone, that what I do is not okay. My brain has gone through massive amounts of trauma and my brain reacts the way it does to protect me – and I am getting far more okay with it and not fighting it.

I really don’t care anymore, what cognitive distortion, or trauma reaction anyone thinks I am having – I just need to do, what I need to do.

I know I haven’t looked after myself perfectly, but I have survived what was meant to kill me. And no matter how many times I get knocked down, I always get back up.

I can survive and will do what I need to – and without the help of anyone else, because that is the way it had always been.

It’s always been me, caring for myself with no-one around me who I can rely on, or depend on, and yet here I am still alive.

As a Christian, I praise God for much of this, and I am deeply aware of His love and grace through my life, but it also required my willingness to survive too. God doesn’t force us to do anything – so I needed to do what was necessary and I still do.

I am aware more and more of my own strength, my won courage, my own capacity to survive hell. Continue reading