Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

How Christians deal with church abuse. Apaths, Egocentrics, Narcissists, Sociopaths, Psychopaths.


Some examples of Christian abusers, and how they deal with abuse.


Yeah, I know there are some Bible verses somewhere about abuse and I think Jesus helped abused people, but I’m not Jesus. We’re all sinners, so whatever. Not my problem. Oh and that minister who was accused of abuse, I like him, so that victim must have been lying. The minister never hurt me. Yeah that victim must be lying.


I have enough ministry in church to deal with and dealing with abuse is not part of that. I only bother with stuff that I enjoy and like. I’m not interested in helping that abuse victim. And anyway I have enough of my own problems, I need to talk about, so can we focus on that.


I want people to look up to me, so I will say and do all the right things, learn as much of the Bible as I can, but I don’t really care what it means. I want everyone at church to look at us and think wow they are amazing Christians and we’ll keep anything that isn’t okay, hidden, because our image is everything. And women need to know their place, the man is the head of the household, right. If I’m a minister – I can take advantage of a few of the flock, perks of the job, right. Children need good hard physical punishment. If we get exposed, we’ll lie, deny and start a smear campaign, so that person will have to leave church. I love being a minister, everyone has to listen to me up on my stage. Because I am special.


I will use the Bible to tell people they are sinners and tell them God is angry with them. I don’t care what they think, the Bible is right and I will speak it, I don’t care if it hurts all those people and pushes them away from church and away from God. And you know those conflicting Bible verses, yeah I’ll just ignore those, they don’t fit with my very right wing views. I love the Old Testament the best, great Bible verses to attack people with. Don’t expose me, that makes you demonic. And abuse, well physically abusing my children with belts is good for them and I’ll emotionally abuse my wife all I like. I’m her husband, she does what I say.


God hates fags. You will burn in hell for what you have done. God gave you aids, because he hates you. Those child abuse victims – church lawyers – you treat the victims really badly, they are not getting a cent out of us, I don’t care how many times that priest raped them as children. That victim is the enemy, the devil. Make their life hell. Another priest accused of child rape, got caught, okay tell the priest we will protect him and get rid of that victim as fast as we can. Oh I’ve been promoted to the Vatbank, I deserve that. My wife can’t deny me sex, it says in the Bible, I don’t care if she’s unwell, I want it and I will get it, whenever I demand it.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

4 thoughts on “How Christians deal with church abuse. Apaths, Egocentrics, Narcissists, Sociopaths, Psychopaths.

  1. WOW I just woke up and checked my reader. You must’ve been up all night long. What triggered you????

    • Lol! I’m in Australia, so it’s been daytime here, now evening, so will be off here soon.

      I just write what comes into my mind, whatever my brain is processing and it spills out all over my blog! 🙂

      The Royal Commission stuff and all the abuse coming out, that churches have covered up, enabled, and how badly they have treated victims, has definitely fired me up though.

      Thanks for checking on me 🙂

  2. Hi, I am trying yo understand Complex Trauma….. I am PTSD since diagnosis years ago although I am hyper vilgent & get triggered. I like my church yet Have experienced that I should not say that &proclaim verses for healing & other such statements. Yes I want to be free & love Jesus for years. He has helped me soooo much I cannot name or count how often! So I begin to feeling I don’t fit & my world gets smaller. I go to a Bible Study where prayers were asked & mentioned PTSD & a recent bad trigger. Did not o well. Just basically experienced I wasn’t there by them. I am thinking like a disease someone they don’t know so they jump. I forgive them for He said forgive them for they know not what they do. So fitting in is a deep feeling I have again & stepping out to go again is hard to sit there yet I will try. I am getting older(68 yrs) & a trigger happened that would have been nice to talk to someone…..
    Wait to hear yr feed back. Thanks!