Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

The road of change and personal growth can be really fast…

An example, I was just searching through the ABC TV channel to see if there is anything worth watching over the next few days.

I used to watch anything on TV, all the shallow crap. Now there is so little I want to watch.

I don’t like soaps, reality TV, most shallow programs that are so popular, I avoid, they bore me. I used to love them all.

I watch Law & Order SVU, because I like the acting, I like Mariska Hargitay, the different mental health issues they focus on interests me, I like seeing perps get jail time they deserve, even though it is fiction. And I know why – none of my abusers received the legal or moral consequences they deserved. It’s a comfort thing, I get the psychology.

I support Mariska Hargitay on all the work she does off camera to help reduce abuse.


But, there is little else on TV that I find interesting to watch.

I see the issues associated to much of current TV and I don’t want to be involved in encourage normalising bad behaviours and making it comedy. I don’t intend to be involved in increasing bad behaviour, narcissism, egocentricity, bullying, bitching, lack of empathy, materialism, competition, greed etc.

And I see fully the harm TV causes, it’s not ‘just’ TV. It has a huge effect on society. And so many don’t see this, or don’t care. My integrity to what is right, is too deep. Plus, most TV truly bores me, that I just cannot watch it. It’s like watching children’s TV, to me now.

In fact watching society, is like watching children to me, and these are many people older than me, or those who consider themselves to be intelligent and successful people.

The woman that I was even 3 years ago…..is long gone.

I feel like I have matured decades, within a very short time.

The transformation, is pretty incredible really, praise God.

I know I have more healing to do, but the amount I have matured, grown, developed, learned, understand, is quite an amazing transformation and I am aware of my own limitations, and of God’s pure love and His capacity.

Thank you God.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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