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Research on psychosis. And a lesson, to quit my ‘opinions’, when I don’t know enough…


I wasn’t aware PTSD, could have psychosis. Not common but possible.

And severe depression is one of the more primary disorders, where psychosis can occur.

I am aware that psychosis means there is a complete loss of reality, and behaviours can occur that would not be normal behaviours for that person. Sometimes extreme behaviours. Including violence.

This is new to me, and just shows, as I always say, I definitely do not know it all, by far, but I will find out and keep learning.

A mother has recently been found guilty of infanticide, and let off jail time. My first thought – wow, how can she get off killing her child and disabling another one! Crap bloody legal system!

Hmmmmmm me and my un-educated opinion, which I fully admit to and don’t justify. Honest, I am.

Having done my research on what came from the court hearing, was apparently it could have been psychosis caused by postpartum psychosis.

If this is the case, and this is not her normal kind of behaviour at all, then I feel deeply sorry for this woman. To know you have killed your own baby and severely disabled another and live with that for the rest of your life, so deeply distressing and I do feel for this woman. I cant imagine what it must be like to have a lapse in time, not remember anything and find out you have done this to your children. No wonder she is reported to have deep self hatred and visits the grave every day. If it was psychosis then what a terribly sad situation and I feel a lot of compassion for this mother. It makes me want to cry.

Is psychosis provable? In hindsight – after the situation has occurred? I don’t know.

There is also the case of the military guy who shot people in Fort Hood. He had possible PTSD and a possible brain injury. It could have been psychosis, but there is no proof. ‘If’ it was psychosis and he was not normally an aggressive man, again I feel deeply compassionate for him. To live with that, is horrific.

This is a hard situation, because anyone with a mental health disorder, could do something terrible, purely because they want to and not due to psychosis, and then say it was psychosis. Very dodgy legal situation to be in dealing with murders and violent acts.

I read most psychosis is short lived and can last a few weeks. But in some rare cases, psychosis can last for years. Wow, that is a long time to not be in control of your mind and have behaviours and actions that you would not normally have, even short lived psychosis.

What a truly horrific involuntary mental health issue, that can devastate the lives of many.

I wonder how often this occurs and I am guessing there are people in jail, who did not know or have any control over something they have done, which they would never normally have done, and feel desperately and painfully shameful and distressed about. And I agree IF psychosis is very real and can result in murder, child murder, rape, violence, that would never have normally been committed, then that person does not deserve to be in jail.

What an incredibly hard situation to deal with legally.

And this has made me think, that maybe I should quit being so judgmental and opinionated, about things I don’t necessarily know enough about…and I am honest to admit this.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

4 thoughts on “Research on psychosis. And a lesson, to quit my ‘opinions’, when I don’t know enough…

  1. But most people with psychosis are not dangerous. In fact, they’re far more likely to be victims of violence than perpetrators. People with schizophrenia, for example, are 4 times more likely to be victims of violence than the average person, and you’re statistically more likely to be killed by a shark than a schizophrenic.

    I had one psychotic episode, secondary to self-starvation, sleep deprivation, and severe dissociation. I believed I didn’t exist, and I could prove it with a combination of Cartesian logic and singularity theory. Eventually, I came to believe that because I was still walking around even though I didn’t exist, I was going to rip a hole in reality and destroy the universe. I attempted suicide because I believed it was the only way to save the universe. It sounds completely nuts, I know. But even in my psychosis, I was trying to save people, not hurt them.

    Just an alternate view.

    • Thank you Hope for sharing this with me. I really appreciate it. I don’t know enough about psychosis to know how often violent behaviours would occur, but I assumed most of the time people are not dangerous at all.

      It just really made me think about the woman who killed her baby while in a postpartum psychosis and how terrible that is. And to have to live with that, is so painful.

      There are many different types of psychosis and I want to do some more research about it. And I can see as well that people experiencing psychosis would be highly susceptible to becoming victims too. Which is also very sad.

      It is a very interesting part of mental health.

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