Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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Poem – Constant Dark Shadow Companion

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A poem about PTSD.

Poem – Constant Dark Shadow Companion

PTSD mind
Remembers
Too much
Different
Trauma
Fight
Vying
For
Equal
Attention

Never knowing
Which trauma
Will spring
From the
Dark recesses
Of my
Meticulously
Stored
Memory
Files

Narcissist
Sociopath
Psychopath
Paedophile
Which will
My mind
Choose
Today?
Tonight
As my
Companion?

Mother
Step father
Neighbour
Family friend
Sisters
Ex-husband
Pastor
Stranger
In the park

All memories
Dark
Pain
Hurt
Betrayal
Suffering
Abuse
Lies
Manipulation
They all
Enjoyed

Since PTSD
Crash
2012
Brain
Unable to
Contain
Repress
Suppress
Any longer
Memories
Unleashed

Fear emotions
Deep pain
Gushing forth
Overflowing dam
Gates
Open
A torrent
Of pain
Surges forth
Unrepentant

Still stuck
In my mind
In my files
Springing
Forth
Uninvited
Unwanted
Their appearance
Timing
Never known

Struggling
To live
Darkness
Dragging
Consuming
Constant
Unwanted
Black
Shadow
Companion.

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario