Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Severe PTSD, school holidays, husband night shifts, hives & nauseous at dinnertime.

This week, my husband is on nights (he’s a cop). Not good timing when I have the boys home for the school holidays.

This is resulting in added stress, hives now daily at home, and I am nauseous by dinner time and unable to eat with my family, at 6pm. My dinner goes in the fridge and I eat it when the boys have gone to bed.

I used to love school holidays and would go out every day and have fun with the boys.

But, I am a different person now *sigh. Now, I am struggling daily, and by the late afternoon – my PTSD Cup hath well and truly runneth over!! Yes, I know this is a Bible quote, well minus the PTSD bit. I’m sure Jesus will be okay with me stealing it for blogging purposes.

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PTSD-Cup

POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER IS NOT FUN WITH KIDS!!!

C’mon – being a mother is hard enough – but PTSD, depression & agoraphobia as well!!!! So not cool.

Oh and a grumpy husband on nights who does not ‘do well’ if he doesn’t get his 8 hours sleep every night. *really fighting the temptation to write something sarcastic about husband..

And don’t let me forget the lovely HIVES!!!

It’s like having a pile of mossies bite you to bits, every time your stress gets too much. And my husbands grumpy sum total of ‘support’ about that today ‘well stop scratching them then!’. How I resisted the urge to remind him how he whinges like a baby every time he gets one mossie bite…..well lets just say ‘counting to 100’ in my bedroom, is needed for both my children and my husband this week!!!

Ummmmmmmm, did anyone forget…..I’M THE ONE WITH PTSD!!! So how come I’m the one trying to stay calm and sort out everyone else’s moods!!!

Aren’t I the one, that is allowed the irritability and grumpy moods??? Apparently not.

What’s wrong with this ^^^ picture???

I am so stressed by dinner time, I can’t eat. I feel nauseous, so I eat it later, when my stress levels are down.

I CAN’T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START BACK AND HUSBAND TO BE ON DAY SHIFTS – GIVE ME SOME PEACE AND QUIET!!!

And I don’t even have ‘mother guilt’ for saying it.

4 days to go, and counting.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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