My day started pretty badly, but improved considerably. I realised people have their different opinions on what I do, and that does not have to have any impact on me, or my mood, or my understanding of situations. My self esteem is not tied to anyone else’s opinion of me. I choose to reject any hurt ego/trigger issues and embrace self esteem and be secure in my intentions and capacity to do right. No matter what you do, there will always be critics and that only has to bother me, if I let it.
After that, I felt great!
In the afternoon, spent some quality time with my husband and my boys. We only went for a walk, with the boys on their bikes and to the park, but it was a lovely day, sun shining, watching my boys have fun, getting out and having some fresh air. I started off with hives, but they weren’t too bad and didn’t detract from enjoying watching my family have fun and just having quality family time.
I am increasingly finding the simple, free things in life, more and more to be all I need. I know what God already provides for is, is enough.
Did some mindfulness and made my mind not wander to any of my PTSD trauma, or issues on social media, and just try to enjoy it and I did. I stayed present and refused to allow anything else spoil my family time.
I felt so much more relaxed, time out of the house, off my laptop and outside. I felt connected and part of life and my family fully. It was wonderful.
Hubby wants to buy me my bike tomorrow, so I’m excited about that and really wanting to get out of the house more, get some exercise and be healthier.
Self care has never been my strong point, but as long as I keep trying, with non judgement and self compassion, like I always advise everyone else.