Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

My self esteem, is not required to be remotely tied up in what others think of me.

Self esteem is not about ego, and I see the differences.

Nothing you ever do, will be okay with everyone. If you know your heart intentions, are good and needed and serve a good purpose, then nothing anyone else says, needs to affect that.

My previous counsellor, said my inner security and integrity to know what is right and wrong and my capacity to integrity and self honesty, are deep.

If people disagree and criticise, you can evaluate what they have said, decide if they have a valid point of view and re-assess your own thoughts. I believe in taking wise advice. I believe in growing and self development and it takes wisdom and lack of ego to know we need this.

There will always be those who don’t support someone who is willing to step up, and often their lack of support, or criticism, is self serving and about their own ego, or low self esteem.

If I feel it is necessary to expose bullies and people who cause harm to others, and it is needed to help prevent others getting hurt – then I will. I don’t need to take on every challenge, I don’t need to feel responsible for every situation I see, and I need to be aware of my own needs, safety etc, but ultimately, the decision to do good, rather than apathy, is required.

This was an interesting chart showing apathy = low challenge + low achievement.

Image Wikipedia.

I knew this, but it was good to be validated in this diagram, which shows the challenge and effort for apathy is so low. And yet apathy is encouraged on society, unless it is about image, money, status etc.

I don’t care about image, money, status.

So, I am developing a more secure self esteem, even when criticised. I am understanding more and more, why people choose apathy and why people get offended by those who do step up.

And my self esteem does not remotely need to be tied up to any of these people, and how they view me.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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