Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


Mentally ill people aren’t killers, or abusers. Angry people are.

PTSD – is also not an excuse for violence, domestic violence, or abuse.

It is always the PTSD sufferers responsibility to manage any anger, express it appropriately, and if too difficult – remove themselves from people and family etc – until they can.

I agree with this…


The following is from this ^ link.

In the 1980s, around the time of the massive deinstitutionalization of the mentally ill, I was working toward my degree in clinical psychology by training at a psychiatric hospital in Washington, D.C. One sweet, diminutive, elderly patient sometimes wandered the halls. She had been committed to the hospital after she stabbed someone in a supermarket. She was what is sometimes referred to as a revolving-door patient: She was schizophrenic and heard frightening voices in her head, and when she became psychotic enough, she would be hospitalized, stabilized on medication, and then released back to the community. There she would soon go off her medication, become psychotic, be rehospitalized, stabilized again on medication, released, etc.

At her commitment hearing, she testified that she had become extremely upset in the grocery store before repeatedly stabbing the man in front of her in the checkout line. The hearing officer, aware of her history and sympathetic to this woman with such a sweet demeanor, asked helpfully if she had been hearing voices at the time. Yes, she replied, she had. “And what were the voices telling you?” the officer inquired supportively. She explained that the voices were telling her not to hurt the man, but he had gotten in the express checkout lane with more than 10 items, and that made her so mad that she couldn’t stop herself. Continue reading


This is why I cannot approve most comments atm..cyber intimidation.

Anon accounts. Same IP address.

All lies. All intimidation/harassment.

What kind of ‘man’ terms all this bullying as needing to be about scoring points with a childish need to say;

Him 10 -v- Me 0

And look who else terms ‘winning’ as a scoring need

It’s being dealt with.


Society and Christianity need to grow a pair…

A post to my page….pretty popular amongst abuse survivors.

When did society become…..

All about being nice and kind to people who harm others/abusers, make excuses for them, tell us we should feel sorry for them, let them off with little consequences, give them lots of support, let them out of prison repeatedly….that’s if they even go to prison of course.

And worse….tell the victims of these people, who have suffered, to move on, get over it, stop dwelling etc and show little empathy and support to the victims.


I see this blatantly, in society, in Christianity….

Society is getting increasingly more screwed up about this.

Which is why society is getting more selfish, more egocentric, more abusive and why we have bullying epidemics, narcissism epidemics, and increasing domestic violence, child abuse etc.

When did society loose the balls to tell people who cause harm – the truth???

When did society decide to ignore abuse/abusers and not care unless it happens directly to themselves???

I have the guts and courage to call them out on it. But there are not many people who are willing to, or have the integrity or courage to. Or care enough about others, to do what’s needed, or do what’s right, moral.

Society is all about ‘look after yourself’, ‘don’t invite negativity about others into your life’, ‘mind your own business’, ‘they didn’t do anything to me – so why should I care?’…

And I could be here all day writing about the all too common Church ways of justifying cheap grace, protecting abusers, damaging abuse victims….they can all too often be the worst. And I am a Christian, a real one, but I do not excuse, or condone their crap/abuse.

Society, Christianity need to ‘grow some balls’ as the saying goes.

Or maybe this is more appropriate 😉

Sorry any men reading this, it was just too funny, not to add 😉


Don’t call me baby….(ever).

This was my attitude, in my good old clubbing days.

Don’t EVER call me baby. That’s what the psychopath called me.

Don’t think you own me. I will never be ‘owned’.

I don’t belong to you. I belong to me.

Don’t under-estimate me boy.

I know how to rock your world.

After the 1st 20 years of my life…..my freedom….I protected fiercely.

Trust no-one, was my motto.

Still is.


Titanium! Shoot me down, but I won’t fall!

I know things are going well when I want to listen and dance to this!

And as loud as possible!!!

(You can take the girl out of the clubbing scene, but you’ll never take the clubber completely out of the girl 😉 )



(feat. Sia)

You shout it out
But I can’t hear a word you say
I’m talking loud not saying much
I’m criticized
But all your bullets ricochet
Shoot me down, but I get up

I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away Continue reading