I am pretty sure that grieving abuse and having PTSD, at the same time, makes each of these worse.
The grieving, makes me have more intrusive memories and more nightmares.
Which then means all the PTSD symptoms, increase.
Which then increases my sadness and depression and grieving.
Maybe my PTSD won’t heal more, until I stop grieving.
How ever long that takes.
No wonder I cannot hold on to any positive periods of time, for more than a few days.