“Happy birthday early my dear Lilly!!!
I know it’s tomorrow but I wanted to leave you a message today too! Thank you for being the beautiful woman you are inside and out!!! For making a path for those of us who are sometimes very lost and trying to go on and find the light after child abuse and other types of ongoing abuse, narcissistic relationships, depression, anxiety, and PSTD/CPTSD just to name a few.
When I think about you the words: courageous, brave, loving, caring, sweet, wonderful, compassionate, inspiring, life-changing, motivational, empathetic, genuine, amazing, daring, strong, vulnerable in the best of ways because you show us it is a blessing, understanding, precious, unique and strong come to mind. I wish you the best of birthdays yet and may it be filled with love, beauty, peace, healing, happiness and all the wonderful things life has to offer!
May God bless you more every single day and may you continue helping others in all the ways you do and changing the word with your love and compassion towards people who are hurting, thanks for sharing with us and making me feel like I’m not alone and I am worthy and capable of making my life a better one! I love you today and always!!! xoxoxo ❤ ❤ ❤ "
Made me cry. And I know the beautiful girl who sent me this, is genuine and means what she has said.
As someone who has not had a lot of genuine positive things said to me in my life, I always find compliments very difficult to take. Even when my counsellors say nice things, I struggle not to assume they are just being nice to me, to build up my self esteem. I struggle to believe them, even though they have both encouraged me to be a counsellor in the future.
I get confused, when people say nice things. I struggle to not wonder why, I still struggle and assume they don’t mean it and there must be a reason they are saying nice things.
I guess hypervigilance and a lifetime of being treated so badly and having people grooming me, abusing me and using me, doesn’t get fixed overnight.
And I am also so aware of not becoming prideful and still having humility. I don’t want to consider myself as someone great, because I know I’m not. I’m a sinner like everyone else.