Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

A post to my page for my Birthday, I want to blog, to keep as a record.


“Happy birthday early my dear Lilly!!!

I know it’s tomorrow but I wanted to leave you a message today too! Thank you for being the beautiful woman you are inside and out!!! For making a path for those of us who are sometimes very lost and trying to go on and find the light after child abuse and other types of ongoing abuse, narcissistic relationships, depression, anxiety, and PSTD/CPTSD just to name a few.

When I think about you the words: courageous, brave, loving, caring, sweet, wonderful, compassionate, inspiring, life-changing, motivational, empathetic, genuine, amazing, daring, strong, vulnerable in the best of ways because you show us it is a blessing, understanding, precious, unique and strong come to mind. I wish you the best of birthdays yet and may it be filled with love, beauty, peace, healing, happiness and all the wonderful things life has to offer!

May God bless you more every single day and may you continue helping others in all the ways you do and changing the word with your love and compassion towards people who are hurting, thanks for sharing with us and making me feel like I’m not alone and I am worthy and capable of making my life a better one! I love you today and always!!! xoxoxo ❤ ❤ ❤ "

Made me cry. And I know the beautiful girl who sent me this, is genuine and means what she has said.

As someone who has not had a lot of genuine positive things said to me in my life, I always find compliments very difficult to take. Even when my counsellors say nice things, I struggle not to assume they are just being nice to me, to build up my self esteem. I struggle to believe them, even though they have both encouraged me to be a counsellor in the future.

I get confused, when people say nice things. I struggle to not wonder why, I still struggle and assume they don’t mean it and there must be a reason they are saying nice things.

I guess hypervigilance and a lifetime of being treated so badly and having people grooming me, abusing me and using me, doesn’t get fixed overnight.

And I am also so aware of not becoming prideful and still having humility. I don’t want to consider myself as someone great, because I know I’m not. I’m a sinner like everyone else.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

8 thoughts on “A post to my page for my Birthday, I want to blog, to keep as a record.

  1. Beautiful message! It is true that accepting compliments is hard, I struggle with that too, wondering what’s in it for them, you know. The work you do is important and keep doing it because you do help a lot of people, maybe more than you know. Take a bow! ❤

  2. “I get confused, when people say nice things. I struggle to not wonder why, I still struggle and assume they don’t mean it” I struggle with this every day. I read you every day and you help me more than you know. Thank you ❤

  3. These words are so true… “I still struggle and assume they don’t mean it.” Many of us feel this way from our years of abuse… but you put the words out there. Thanks for all that you do to help others. I totally agree with your birthday message… You are a blessing to all and may God pour out His blessings upon you! Happy Birthday, my friend!!