When the denial crumbles – it is painful – to see abusive people for who they really are.
To know I was never loved, because they are not capable of love, was one of the most painful things I have gone through in my healing over the last two years.
To come to terms with this and the severity of all the abuse, has almost been more than I can emotionally cope with. I have wanted to be dead, more times than I want to admit, within the last 2 years. And I am a strong person, but that’s how painful it is.
But, this ‘coming out of denial’, was all needed, no matter how deeply painful and still is, as grieving takes a long time. Although sometimes I wish I was still acquainted with my old friends ‘denial, suppression and avoidance’.
But, I know I am growing and strengthening.
And growing in insight, spiritually and in emotional wisdom.