Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


“Will I Ever Be Good Enough?: Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers”

I am going to buy this book as I truly believe the damage caused by being raised by narcissistic/sociopathic people, is deep.

It is good to read/hear different perspectives and know more about why we subconsciously act, react. think, fear – the way we do.


Being an ‘over-sharer’ is not the problem – it’s people’s reactions, and in turn, my reactions.

I am someone who would be considered to be an ‘over-sharer’. I’m quite sure that in psychology terms I would be considered someone without healthy enough boundaries.

I believe being someone so open – is about honesty, realness, rawness, courage. Not needing to wear a mask like most people do, to hide the bad parts.

Being an over-sharer is not the problem.

It’s all the nasty, lying, manipulative, selfish, narcissistic, abusive people, who use this deep honesty, for their own needs, and hurt us, that is the problem.

Having tighter boundaries on what I share, for me, is not the issue. Continue reading


Everyone always leaves…

For over 18 months, I have attended counselling with my trauma counsellor, and she validated, supported, encouraged and helped me considerably in my healing journey.

She is unwell and possibly not going to return to counselling at all, I recently found out.

I am very glad and thankful she is doing what she needs for herself and for her health and I support that fully. I care about her and want her to be well. And not in any way do I want or expect her to do anything differently than she is doing.

I am also honest enough to know the impact this has on me. I have that underlying fear, even writing this, that everyone abandons me, no-one sticks with me – whether deliberately, or non intentionally.

It’s just been the way it’s always been, all through my life.

People leave, and leave at really bad times. When I really need them most.

I want to go and cry and tell her how hard the last few months have been, because I know she will understand. She knows my history more than anyone and she knows the pain of the trauma I endured within the last 2 years, on top of all the abuse and trauma throughout my life.

She never minimized any of this, in fact she helped me to know, it is trauma and the damage it caused.

She helped me to realise the consequences of all these abusive people. Without her, I would not be at the point I am at, of understanding just how severe it all has been, how it wasn’t my fault and she helped me in a way that I knew I had her support and her validation, always.

I trusted her as much as I am capable of trusting anyone. Which is huge for me. Continue reading