Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

No matter how hard it is, I can stand up to abusive people now. I do. And I will.


Not having a good day at all. But today shows my strength too.

Passive aggressive trolling and harassment from a paedophile, is not what I want to deal with. And he will know that going to an abuse survivors page and commenting on Twitter about anything paedophile or sex offender related, is not okay, not appropriate. He is using his believed ‘rights’ to harass abuse survivors. With no empathy as they don’t. Sick.

Paedophilia is a mental disorder, which means they have sexual attraction to children. Yes I have a mental health disorder – but mine doesn’t create sick thoughts in my head about sexual interest in children. It is completely different.

He ‘claims’ to not act on it. Well of course he will say that. ‘If’ he has acted on it, he’s not likely to say it on a traceable social media account, is he. He certainly knows that contacting abuse survivors will be highly inappropriate, especially ones with PTSD. Was that intended? To cause distress? It’s certainly harassment.

But, despite my considerable distress, flashbacks, memories etc flooding my head, I still did what was needed. I phoned my husband to come home. Good self care. I responded back appropriately to this ‘person’, who doesn’t disclose his name or photo, funnily enough, but hides behind an anon profile. Blocked him and he’s blocked me. Good. I want nothing to do with people who have sexual attraction to children – which is a severe mental impairment of having thoughts and needs that if acted out are criminal and disgusting and are highly abusive to children and cause great harm and suffering and life long consequences and damage people lives.

If a person sits thinking about murdering people – they would be a severely sick person, because that is an act of dark, evil and sick thoughts. Paedophilia thoughts are no different.

I have reported the tweets to Twitter and the police. My husband is a police officer and will ensure this is dealt with.

I do stand up to people now, who have abusive, dark, intentions and act in ways that are abusive, regardless of their excuses, justifications, manipulation, lies, deceit.

And, I will continue to stand up to them – because it won’t be just me these people are hurting.

I won’t be apathetic about abuse. Ever.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “No matter how hard it is, I can stand up to abusive people now. I do. And I will.

  1. Viewing explicit images of children is also a crime, he/she has done this via his/her previous blog, as such is a child sex offender regardless of whether touch is involved.

    When you pick up stalkers like this person it shows what a positive effect you are having in raising awareness of child sexual abuse, and it gives many others the courage to speak out and get help.
    Thank you

    • Yes, sadly when you are doing good – it attracts hate from disgusting people, who don’t want the truth to be told.

      I was told that you know you are making a difference – when you get the haters, hating.

      I have a stalker, who uses many different aliases and accounts – as sociopaths do, I have been targeted by paedophile and had hate pages set up about me on Twitter & FB – where the only comments made were by people supporting me and the ‘stalker’ was talking to himself and no-one joined him to hate me. Which shows how pathetic he is.

      All proof that I speak the truth and I am doing good – which these dark, sick people, hate.

      But, I am stronger than all that – and they hate that too.

      Thank you again, for all your support! ❤