I was a party girl back in the day, clubbing was a huge part of my life in my 20’s. The club style dancing, the club scene, having far too much ‘fun’, the men, alcohol, the sex – were my highs.
This was my life.
I craved the level of fun, that would take away the inner pain I always had, from so much abuse. A maladaptive coping strategy that is common in child sexual abuse victims.
When I hear songs like this – that I love – I still crave being back there.
Even though, I have no intention or desire to be back in the clubbing scene the rest of the time.