Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Cried watching this. The sadness, underneath the ‘staying high’.

My 20’s.

I know I am grieving so many different parts of life. My childhood. My adolescence. My 20’s. And all the many periods of suffering, within each of those.

It’s overwhelming, how much suffering I have endured, and how much grieving I still have to do.

This really represents, my loneliness, sadness, how I was trying to suppress the first 2 decades of my life. How I went out partying, clubbing, drinking and taking home men, to stay ‘high’, so I wouldn’t have to feel the pain.

Lyrics

“Stay High (Tove Lo Flip)”

Ooh [x16]

Staying in my paper tent
Where the fun ain’t got no end
Staying in my paper
Where the fun ain’t got no end
Staying in my paper tent
Where the fun ain’t got no end

Ooh

Can’t go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain
Can’t go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain
Can’t go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain

Oh ooh

Staying in my paper tent
Where the fun ain’t got no end
Can’t go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain

You’re gone and I gotta stay high
All the time
To clim
High all the time
To climb
High all the time
To keep you on my mind
High all the time
To climb
High all the time
To climb
High all the time
To keep you on my mind

Ooh [x16]

Staying in my paper tent
Where the fun ain’t got no end
Staying in my paper
Where the fun ain’t got no end
Staying in my paper tent
Where the fun ain’t got no end

Oh ooh

Can’t go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain
Can’t go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain
Can’t go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain

Oh ooh

Staying in my paper tent
Where the fun ain’t got no end
Oh ooh
Can’t go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain

You’re gone and I gotta stay high
All the time
To clim
High all the time
To climb
High all the time
To keep you on my mind
High all the time
To climb
High all the time
To climb
High all the time
To keep you on my mind

Ooh [x16]

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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