I have decided to attend Bible study again. It is something I need, something I know Jesus wants me to do.
But, this does not mean I wish to attend Church, or be a part of the Church.
I know that is not what I need right now. I don’t believe you have to and that different people have different paths laid out for them.
I have different needs, gifts and levels of wisdom, different levels of spiritual growth, to many other Christians, and this is not a boast, in any way, it is due to my life and God’s work within me.
I don’t have the capacity to deal with petty, minor, normal life issues in life, – it is not my gifting and I am very aware and upfront and honest about that.
I believe my life is about the bigger issues in life. Which is why I choose to help severe abuse survivors, why I will volunteer abroad to help street children and I hope to volunteer in child protection and whatever else is put on my heart to do.
I also know I am gifted with seeing into people’s hearts and knowing when people are lying, not what they pretend to be and are toxic and negative and I need to stay away from such people – and these people exist in every church.
No-one can judge me as to whether I choose to attend Church on Sunday mornings or not.
I know what I need and I know God is okay with that. He is not a ‘rules’ led, legalistic God, who demands each person lives their life a particular way.
He knows my needs too.
And I am not scared to say this too.