Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I am getting so much better, at being firm about my needs, self care and my journey.


I have decided to attend Bible study again. It is something I need, something I know Jesus wants me to do.

But, this does not mean I wish to attend Church, or be a part of the Church.

I know that is not what I need right now. I don’t believe you have to and that different people have different paths laid out for them.

I have different needs, gifts and levels of wisdom, different levels of spiritual growth, to many other Christians, and this is not a boast, in any way, it is due to my life and God’s work within me.

I don’t have the capacity to deal with petty, minor, normal life issues in life, – it is not my gifting and I am very aware and upfront and honest about that.

I believe my life is about the bigger issues in life. Which is why I choose to help severe abuse survivors, why I will volunteer abroad to help street children and I hope to volunteer in child protection and whatever else is put on my heart to do.

I also know I am gifted with seeing into people’s hearts and knowing when people are lying, not what they pretend to be and are toxic and negative and I need to stay away from such people – and these people exist in every church.

No-one can judge me as to whether I choose to attend Church on Sunday mornings or not.

I know what I need and I know God is okay with that. He is not a ‘rules’ led, legalistic God, who demands each person lives their life a particular way.

He knows my needs too.

And I am not scared to say this too.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

5 thoughts on “I am getting so much better, at being firm about my needs, self care and my journey.

  1. I am happy that found a Bible Study to attend! Life is good. God is good. Awesome post.